Search For God
If you feel insecure don’t be ashamed. Learn to live with uncertainty. The uncertainty has always been there, You were just too busy to notice.
Don’t mope around frozen in fear that your actions may be misunderstood. Get busy again. Keep yourself occupied, and whatever you do, please don’t sit around doing nothing.
Continue your search for God. That should help make you a happy camper. At least it will take your mind off what you can’t do anything about. Only God can make us feel secure so keep searching for his message of kindness and caring.